Preppy is the New Hipster

Its not like it was totally random, and its not like the squash date didnt go well. It just kind of happened. I am totally confused and in the dark about what happened on the squash date. Okay he is so hot and really fit. I dont know if there were sparks. I think that is probs equivilent to saying I dont know if I had an orgasm, meaning that there weren't sparks or orgasms.

I can't tell if Richard wants to be 'buddies' or if he wants to kiss me. He was very serious on the court. He was trying really hard. I won, thankfully, but it was close and I was breathing heavy and sweating alot. He is just really serious. I dont know. We were flirtacious i think. After being depressed yesterday afternoon I was really not at my best. Whatever. I dont know, there are lots of things about him that I want to know. It was fun chatting with him, but he is pretty shy, which i think is sexy and mysterious.

We went to the Rake afterward had two beers, and then we left. He was running home. He ran to work in the morning, god he has a hot body. No kissing, there was an awkward half-hug/half-kiss on the cheek. He also wrote me a sweet text message about playing again next week.

I want to see Richard, i think. Just got another text message from him, he prefers to be called rich(I asked-this wasnt unprovoked). That is going to be problematic for me. I hate the name Rich it reminds me of New Jersey. I'm confused and getting really behind on my paper.