So this is the post where I bitch and moan about not being able to make up my mind about what i want to do. hopefully, it will help me think about things with improved clarity.
inter-related things that im trying to understand.
1-Where to live. London/DC. Those are pretty much my two main choices at the moment, but I'd probably rather go to Berlin or Barcelona or Brooklyn. I think I'm going to stick with my two top choices. Thats the bigger issue-->the smaller issue is that i need somewhere to live in September. I'm looking at a flat this afternoon.
Saraleha refered me to a friend of hers, so I'm hoping that it will work out. Its a little more than I want to spend, but I also can't really deal with looking around at the moment. We'll see.
2-An inter-related problem is a job. I'm applying to jobs in London and DC at the moment. But its also the type of job that is confounding me at the moment. I mean yes, I'm applying at all of the think-tanks and stuff. Its been recommended that I also apply for jobs on the hill, but I would hate to work on the hill. I would hate the people, and the nylons, and the interns. Just hate it. Besides the only interaction I have had with people who work on the hill involved a strange pseudo-foursome with a daschound, a speaker of the house. It was weird. Whatever, I don't want to work on the hill. I have a few good leads in DC. The problem is interviewing. I mean I doubt they will fly me over to DC to interview, but I dont really want to fly over to DC for one or two interviews...hmm. Which is why picking one place and sticking to it, would be much easier. Also, I have decided that I want to do something a bit more creative as well. Like maybe work for Current TV or work for TopShop, or Dover Street Market.
Its actually kind of working itself out that in the states I am applying for politico-type jobs and in London I'm applying for, we'll say, alternative type careers.
3-There is my paper and all of these bigger issues are weighing heavy on my mind and making it difficult to focus on my paper. hmm
Also weighing heavy on my mind. Next week I'm renting a car with john. Awesome. I'm so excited. Road trip. Road sodas.
If anyone has anything enlightening they want to share, I'm open for anything.
Also, I was going to write something passive-aggressive about how
tweaks no longer responds when i gchat her, but its probably unfair. she has to work, and think about her own problems with grad school and stuff, and to be honest, when i gchat her its usally just me complaining about boys or whatever. I mean and she has a boyfriend now, so like that probably means she doesnt know how to listen to other peoples guy problems anymore.